November 18, 2002 10:34 pm
Contentment
Meanwhile, I'm learning more and more from my therapist (one of the things that I DON'T share on my radio show). After years of feeling guilt-ridden, I am realizing that I am not feeling guilt, I'm feeling fear, anger, regret, disappointment, longing, embarassment, etc. etc. and I'm labeling it guilt. I haven't discussed any of this with him just yet, but I think this is probably what he was leading me to last week.
I have been in agony for days with a strained neck and shoulder. Finally got to the chiropractor this morning and he did things that made new and exciting pains up and down my torso. I will dose myself up with heavy drugs and try to go to sleep soon.
Either that or I will do some "work" work at home for a while. It is that dreaded time that I must prepare the Christmas music for the station. Most listeners have no clue how much work it takes to play a few Christmas songs each year.