January 04, 2002 11:40 pm
Slightly brighter
Now our big topic of discussion is the trip to Hawaii in March. My parents are celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary in March and rather than have a party they want to take the entire family on a cruise around Hawaii. Of course that involves a flight TO Hawaii and that is the rub. Mark is afraid of flying and has been for a long time. I got him on a plane to Hawaii in '97 when my friend lived there and he enjoyed the trip despite the flights. Now, of course, post-September 11, he is more jittery than ever and sees no reason to ever fly again. I am no great lover of flying but I know there are many wonderful places in the world that cannot be seen without flying. I don't need to see them all, I don't want to be a world traveler and fly on every vacation, but I think this is an important celebration, a generous gift and will be a fun time. I expect that he will go but it won't ever be a fun trip that we can talk about and anticipate since he is so scared about terrorism, bolts coming loose, etc. I try to tell him that he is in more danger after a few whiskeys and driving home which he does too often but he cannot fathom how I can logically think that.
Today was a long frustrating day at work. Mostly hangover frustration from last night causing me troubles (emotional hangover) but the list of tasks to be done seemed endless today. When I got to the last thing on the list, the thing that would take thirty minutes and set me free for the weekend---I couldn't do it because the boss hadn't done what he has to do before I can do it. Aggravating to have to return to work over the weekend to do it and aggravating because I probably could have left work a couple of hours earlier and come home and done a little more when I go back up there tomorrow.
I haven't had a nap today but I'm trying not to crash too early since it is the weekend. I don't want to wake up at 3:30.
Today I did come home and made an acupuncture appointment for Monday, a medical doctor appointment for Thursday and I got a list of counseling providers under our insurance. I'll have to make that appointment Monday, but I hope I do. I'm not as bad off as I have been in the past but it's getting there.